2022-07-03 #writing/poetry #poem-a-day#finished-poems
how have we not met before? because I would never go out to parties like this because I would never dance so freely like this because my mind was a prison for my body for my soul, because there weren’t reasons to be free. because being restrained was an escape from being. because being compressed was an emergency exit for coming out as one who cares.
we never met before because we were never designed to meet, or rather we were designed to not meet because I relied on crutches to curb my anxiety. because you always knew how to get anything even if you didn’t want it & I always knew what I got was what I wanted but I could never get any of it. I liked wanting too much & you liked getting too much.
We lived on different planets because you ran a marathon and put on class president because I was evaluating the pros & cons of running altogether because my world was a snowglobe superglued to the table because yours was one that was shaken & rearranged on the daily.
You gave me a rocket and went to bed. For years, it stayed abandoned like an unloved puppy at the shelter. I was too afraid to touch it, scared of it falling to dust the moment I reached my hand out. Every day I moved a step closer until on a full moon in July, with a breeze running through the trees, i held hands with a combustion engine & became intimate with propulsors & left my atmosphere for good.