Author:: Susan Choi
Full Title:: Trust Exercise
Tags:#media/book
- themes::
- theme 1
- Summary::
- summary 1
* highlights from 2021-05-04
* Intuition only tells them what they want, not how to achieve it, and this is intolerable. ([Location 27](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=27))
* had been a daring experiment ten years before and was now an elite institution, recently moved to an expensive new building full of “world class,” “professional” facilities. The school was meant to set apart, to break bonds that were better off broken, confined to childhood. ([Location 33](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=33))
* A spreading aural disturbance of shifting and rustling. The room was not large; immediately, bodies encountered each other and startled away. ([Location 65](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=65))
* In their city only the poorest of the poor, or fresh victims of crimes, ever walked. ([Location 167](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=167))
* It was part of the excruciating in-betweenness of no longer being children, yet lacking those powers enjoyed by adults. The “streets” within the complex weren’t real streets at all but a tirelessly branching metastasis of walkway, or driveway, the former distinguished by borders of dying impatiens, the latter by bordering spaces to park. ([Location 176](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=176))
* Mr. Kingsley was not just gay but an iconoclast, the first such they’d ever encountered. This was what they longed to be themselves, little though they could put it in words. They were all children who had previously failed to fit in, or had failed, to the point of acute misery, to feel satisfied, and they had seized on creative impulse in the hope of salvation. ([Location 208](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=208))
* Remember the dilation and diffusion, the years within days. Theirs were endless; lives flowered and died between waking and noon. ([Location 233](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=233))
* To David, love meant declaration. Wasn’t that the whole point? To Sarah, love meant a shared secret. Wasn’t that the whole point? ([Location 271](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=271))
* highlights from 2021-05-06
* Having bought back a friendship she no longer wanted by defiling the one thing she cared about most, ([Location 375](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=375))
* highlights from 2021-05-06
* In literature, there is an idea called automatic writing. You write without resting your pen. The pen must keep moving and moving; perhaps it is writing ‘Why the fuck do I have to keep writing?’” ([Location 540](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=540))
* Some of them will get cast, as the gamblers do not have to be melodic and do have to be funny. David flushes with the consciousness of his own cowardice, ([Location 613](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=613))
* highlights from 2021-05-14
* We’ve all had this dream, Sarah thinks. The dream in which, to the world’s surprise and our own, we turn out to be best. ([Location 700](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=700))
* they’ve all been robbed of heedless childhood and that’s why they’ve been chosen, their precocious adulthood acknowledged. All kids want such glamorous knowledge. The darkness of it. The hardness of it. The realness of it. The cold fact that life really is fucked. ([Location 739](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=739))
* Acting is: fidelity to authentic emotion, under imagined circumstances. Fidelity to authentic emotion is: standing up for your feelings. ([Location 761](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=761))
* acting was truthful emotions in false circumstances. ([Location 1074](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1074))
* There’s a narrow little staircase at the end of the hall, uncarpeted and steep, as if it’s recently grown up from being a ladder. ([Location 1214](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1214))
* THEY KNOW SO much about each other, yet so little. ([Location 1253](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1253))
* **Note**: Surfce vs whats lying under
* The curled, browned, brittle croissants make her think of the discarded shells of locusts she sometimes found hooked to the trees, when she was a little girl, and they lived on a street that had trees, before her father moved out. ([Location 1270](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1270))
* Strange exhalation of the lawns at daybreak, magic child’s-height fog she could pierce with her legs like a giant. In a certain season, she can’t recall which, she could pull fragile locust husks off the trees and, if she wanted to, crush them in her fist, though she never did so. It would have seemed like such a waste of so much hollow intricacy, so many chambers and hinges and spikes, like an alien spaceship in miniature. ([Location 1273](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1273))
* Now, she is always so tired she doesn’t even realize she’s tired. Words stall on her tongue. Tears gather prematurely in her eyes. Waking dreams drift and coil through her mind, similar to ideas, but perhaps not the same. ([Location 1278](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1278))
* It is the falsest emotion under the realest circumstances, except for now, when unexpectedly David’s tone changes. Game over, it says. Ignore everyone else. Look at me. I am talking to you. ([Location 1377](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1377))
* They won’t process emotion, they hoard it. ([Location 1381](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B07CRJB8WJ&location=1381))